29.11.11

freedom in slavery

so it's been about two weeks since the latest medication change. i won't bother you with the details; you all knew how little the Suboxone had been doing recently for my pain control levels, and recently the consultant psychiatrist Dr. D has switched me to another drug, a liquid one that works a lot better. it's been so long since i was actually free of pain that i'd forgotten what it was like. everything's so much freer - movement, thought. i really hope this shit will help me with my repair effort.

hilariously, whilst it is much stronger than tramadol, the new painkiller is of the same family (synthetic opioid analogues, in this case a morphioid). inc: many "can i snort tramadol?" searches just like the good old days.

in terms of that - i will have enough for rent this month, once i also pay back my mum for some of what she loaned me for rent the time before all this shit. i only have this because of you all and your support, and i can't express enough how much i appreciate that support. you are all going to hacker heaven with me.

i'll have some assignments and assessments to do in the next few weeks, so i hope to keep you all updated with them if only so you know what it is i'm trying to do and why... plus they might be interesting. bad news - i will be doing this from various crap boxes belonging to other people (like this one) because my laptop has finally gone tits-up, its mechanical soul flown off to the big scrapyard in the sky (it's where i'm gonna go, when i die, when i die and they lay me to rest i'm gonna go to the place that's the best...) - er, it's fucked, is what i mean. i saved the RAM. my parents are going to see if they can get me a new one (well new to me) for jesusween, which is awesome if a little more than they ought to be spending on their fuckup kid.

i haven't actually been to sleep yet, so idk how coherent this post is actually gonna be. we woke up at 1530 today and decided it was time to try and clock reset once again. if i don't pass out in the pharmacy, in class or at the hospital, i'll let you know how it goes.

lastly, SMS reply-type shout out to Unqualified: i hear and i obey. doing OK, as you can see (you mostly reminded me to update the blog, so consider this entry dedicated to you.) thanks for the checkup; you and anyone else who cares to check in on me are more than welcome to, as it's brilliant for keeping me in touch with what actually matters and not focused on things like stressing over trying to get my washing machine fixed. i love you guys.

L

13 comments:

Ian said...

so, I think there's a burning question on our all our minds right now...does tramadol fuck you up?

Anonymous said...

we love you too! greets, N.

Anonymous said...

fanboi here to say thumbs up for jesusween. lots of love from texas

Unqualified to speak said...

Thank fuck for better drugs. ",)
Happy to be of whatever help.

Anonymous said...

<3

John said...

Great to hear you're doing better. Best of luck

Usul said...

*big thumb up*

what is this liquid drug you speak of?

and more importantly, how are things going with the psych?

malces said...

Cthulhu fhtagn from another colonial! May your futile prayers amuse the old ones as they hasten the Great End this holiday season.

Unqualified to speak said...

Hooray for better drugs!
Glad to be of any assistance. (",)

Anonymous said...

Was really hoping to see you talk somewhere soon. Have you had any offers or been invited to speak at 27c3 at all. Have you been doing any hacking at all lately and what type of gear are you in need of parts components electronics or computer.Maybe could send some out to you. Maybe if you had a wish list of something. keep kikin on lepht...

Anonymous said...

... was talking ...

Anonymous said...

Aaargh! Your spam filter kills me. Again: As far as i am concerned she was talking an 27c3 in 2010.

ThomasEgi said...

really glad to hear that the new medication brought you some relief.
sry to hear your laptop went to silicon heaven.
was playing with the magnetometers meanwhile. they seems to give rather ok data but suffer a lot from drifts and offsets. not terribly hard to write auto-calibration routines on a desktop, but with integer math it will be a bit of a challenge.
i also found a few interesting pieces in my texasinstruments newsletter. they have some quite advanced energy-harvesting chips. those kick in harvesting energy from supplies as low as 330 to 130mV. the chip doubles as battery management unit. not entirely sure if it is of good use, but i will find out.

till then, best of luck to you. keep hacking.